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Showing posts with label Dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dreams. Show all posts
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Lost Heart!
Sitting here reminising about the day we met when i got all wet behind the ears! Yes I was feeling you and i kind of sort of use to get this weird tingley feeling inside whenever I saw you and even when someone mentioned you its like i had already fallen for you but then I woke up and realized I was dreaming. Was I dreaming of something that was right in front my face or just something to satisfy me for the time being until you came along whoever you might be! It seemed like every time someone came along I was setting myself up for disaster because it ended it with me broken-hearted and her well I'm not to sure what it left her because as my heart was being ripped out of my chest she was already gone! Heart gone, Heart broken I was left HEARTLESS! Being as though i was heartless the remained organs of this lost soul were so cold searching for the missing key to this treasure chest...the heart. But it was too late because this heart was lost forever like the sun in the blistering cold. So bold was she to lie and claim she loved me when really the love was hate! Now with heart in hand awaiting this knight and shinning armor of this somehow weirdly created fairy tale of mines, I began to freeze heart became cold and this story shall be and will be told to those whose hearts were lost stolen and torn apart ripped from chest like bird out of nest! Now this human being this beautifully created creature can never be the same because of the heart that was torn apart and never to be reframed. This heart was lost........forever!
Daddy's Little Girl
Kierra got raped the other night
Her vagina is now ripped three centimeters deeper than her pain to prove it
It was so wide that it swallowed her smile
But
She can't smile to digest joy anymore since the walls of her womb are now covered with miscarried screams that were carried out on the echoes of her voice from that night
Her mother slept peacefully
Like a butterfly resting inside its cocoon, oblivious to the world around it
Because her father was still a caterpillar trying to eat at her leaf
He use to tell her she was as beautiful as a rose
And before that night she use to believe him
just like she use to tuck her hope behind the twinkle in her eyes
that her father use to say always shined like his little star he tucked under the covers
that night Kierra couldn't help but lay delicately
as her petals were plucked of their innocence
each time her father's thorny fingers touched the 12 years of her life
that she now wanted to wilt away
that she wanted to dig up from the roots and bury deeper than the incest that was inside her
She never went to bed thinking that in her wildest dreams her reality would become her worst nightmare
or
that her father would become the predator and she the prey
and
She prayed that night
After her father kissed her forehand
with lips that burned as bright as the devils heart
After he told her if she loved her mother she would never tell her about this
So with sickness in her stomach she prayed from her heart,
'now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
and if I die before I wake
I know that God really listens to me when I pray'
That was a conversation she had with God that she was never suppose to have
She wrapped her 12 years of life inside that prayer as if it were Jesus after being born in a manger,
picked it up with her tsunami tears and wanted to push it back inside her
Which would have been easy
since pieces of her father greased the path
All Kierra wanted to do now was be born again
Into another family because the laughs she heard from her father bounced off the hallway walls and vibrated hers so much that her vocal cords started to tingle with the question,
'why am I daddy's little girl?'
Her vagina is now ripped three centimeters deeper than her pain to prove it
It was so wide that it swallowed her smile
But
She can't smile to digest joy anymore since the walls of her womb are now covered with miscarried screams that were carried out on the echoes of her voice from that night
Her mother slept peacefully
Like a butterfly resting inside its cocoon, oblivious to the world around it
Because her father was still a caterpillar trying to eat at her leaf
He use to tell her she was as beautiful as a rose
And before that night she use to believe him
just like she use to tuck her hope behind the twinkle in her eyes
that her father use to say always shined like his little star he tucked under the covers
that night Kierra couldn't help but lay delicately
as her petals were plucked of their innocence
each time her father's thorny fingers touched the 12 years of her life
that she now wanted to wilt away
that she wanted to dig up from the roots and bury deeper than the incest that was inside her
She never went to bed thinking that in her wildest dreams her reality would become her worst nightmare
or
that her father would become the predator and she the prey
and
She prayed that night
After her father kissed her forehand
with lips that burned as bright as the devils heart
After he told her if she loved her mother she would never tell her about this
So with sickness in her stomach she prayed from her heart,
'now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
and if I die before I wake
I know that God really listens to me when I pray'
That was a conversation she had with God that she was never suppose to have
She wrapped her 12 years of life inside that prayer as if it were Jesus after being born in a manger,
picked it up with her tsunami tears and wanted to push it back inside her
Which would have been easy
since pieces of her father greased the path
All Kierra wanted to do now was be born again
Into another family because the laughs she heard from her father bounced off the hallway walls and vibrated hers so much that her vocal cords started to tingle with the question,
'why am I daddy's little girl?'
*Copyright 2008
Wondering
As i sit here listening to yu breathe im wondering if yur dreamin of me
or if yur havin a nightmare were after yu get REALLY REALLY scared i come and protect yu wondering if the dream i will have later will be of yu wondering
if when yu recited yur poem and 1+1 = someone if that someone was me
yu see i wanted to knw that if 1+1 didnt equal 2 did it equal me
and yes i knw yu wrote that poem bfore we met but i kno yuv heard of that funny lil thing called fate and how it works in its mysterious ways and yu see i believe
in fate and i believe that it lead me to yu someone who i believe is
TRULY TRULY special someon i could have an unconditional love a love so true that the orange flame buring inside the two never turned blue
yu see the way yu smiled was soooOooOoO damn lovely so i would do anything
possible to make yu smile becuz yu see i wanted yu to be mine becuz i felt as though yu could be, be the best damn thing thats ever happened to me
so now as i come to the closing of my eyes becuz yu see i didnt
plan to hang up but i was closin my eyes now and i couldnt wait til
the morning when we awoke so i could read yu my future love....breathing
or if yur havin a nightmare were after yu get REALLY REALLY scared i come and protect yu wondering if the dream i will have later will be of yu wondering
if when yu recited yur poem and 1+1 = someone if that someone was me
yu see i wanted to knw that if 1+1 didnt equal 2 did it equal me
and yes i knw yu wrote that poem bfore we met but i kno yuv heard of that funny lil thing called fate and how it works in its mysterious ways and yu see i believe
in fate and i believe that it lead me to yu someone who i believe is
TRULY TRULY special someon i could have an unconditional love a love so true that the orange flame buring inside the two never turned blue
yu see the way yu smiled was soooOooOoO damn lovely so i would do anything
possible to make yu smile becuz yu see i wanted yu to be mine becuz i felt as though yu could be, be the best damn thing thats ever happened to me
so now as i come to the closing of my eyes becuz yu see i didnt
plan to hang up but i was closin my eyes now and i couldnt wait til
the morning when we awoke so i could read yu my future love....breathing
*Copyright 2008
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